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Pages of the Mind, Heart, and Soul
Alright lets get real peeps….
I am not perfect! NOBODY is! My life has not been easy nor perfect. Sure it isn’t as bad as some but there has been many situations and battles I have faced that nobody has ever known about. Sure they may appear minor in your eyes because of what you have been through….but they were major in my eyes.
People don’t know that when I was a little girl I would self harm myself in the middle of the night because I was not as thin as my classmates….I was in the 3rd grade.
People don’t know that there was many times I just wanted to give up and kill myself.
People don’t know that I have had health problems since I was 2 years old.
Many people never knew this few facts because I never would let people see. I have spent most of the pain in my life covering it with a smile.
For the first time I actually feel truly happy….and it makes me sad how people don’t like that. I mean really, is my happiness such a bothersome to you?
I honestly don’t understand. I have taken well over 10 psychology courses and I can’t figure this out. If you know me than you know I never hurt people intentionally and I NEVER let go of people I love/loved who were a big part of my life.
If you can’t say that you know that about me….and REALLY believe it…than you never knew me at all.
I pray for the day when all of us will realize that nobody is perfect and we shouldn’t hold anybody, even those we love, to that standard. Because like the amazing band Honor Society said….”We all fall down.” But does that mean we should leave people deserted…I don’t think so.
Okay so I figured I could take a couple of minutes before I burry myself in Homework for the night.
I seriously can not believe how lucky I am to be where I am at in life. I feel like a year ago my life did not have any meaning or purpose but now I feel like I have an abundant amount of meaning and purpose.
My life has changed EXPONENTIALLY in a year. I face daily battles I never once had to and I have a strength that I never knew I would.
God has blessed me with battles and valleys over the last 12 months. He is taught me to lean on him..even if I don’t understand the situation he is putting me through. He has helped me find love in his eyes through the actions I take, the doors he opens and closes in my life, and the lives that I have met on this journey.
What I once thought was happiness was concerts….attention from band members…being the best flirt….or the prettiest girl in the room….or maybe the best dressed. But really happiness is so much more than ALL OF THAT!
It is about being the best YOU and living the best life that YOU can! A life without purpose or direction is a life that is better off dead. Because nothing in this world will ever fix a heart that has no concern than self…. Only you can fix that.
When I went on a Volunteer trip over spring break it really put my heart into focus. I realized life is about so much more than what I had been living. It is about helping and not expecting anything in return. It is about making the world a more beautiful place by making yourself have a more beautiful soul.
I have never been so comfortable with being just me than I do right now. Because for ONCE I am living my life in a meaningful way. Not that my past has no meaning to me now but they were all self related to a high degree. But my life will have purpose….because my life has meaning….and I feel so lucky.
Time to be a beautiful soul in this dark and cold world peeps….haven’t we been selfish long enough?
VOTE for Honor Society in the Macy’s iHeartRadio Rising Star contest!
If you vote and we win, we will perform at this year’s iHeartRadio Music Festival in Las Vegas (VEGAS, BABY!)
And it gets better…
For every vote you submit, you’ll be entered into a contest to win a trip for two to Las Vegas where you’ll be VIPs at the festival. Not bad, right?
You can vote 25 times per day per e-mail address, so vote daily until April 22nd to increase your odds at winning the big prize (and to help us win, duh.)
This really sheds the light on how being Gluten Free is not a choice by many and is a medical need, like myself. I WOULD NEVER go on a gluten free diet if I did not have a medical reason too. Being gluten free is the only way to treat Celiac Disease and Gluten Sensitivity. The confusion that Gluten Free Diet is a weight loss aid and is a fad diet makes us Celiacs get sick, literally, due to confusion when dinning out. I recently ate out to eat at a place that had a GF menu, and order my usual dish, and the waitress asked me in a rude tone if I actually needed them to really careful or was I just on the diet for fun. Needless to say I wanted to storm out of there but I was hungry. Listen to show…it helps you understand and it even helped me out in many areas.
